tired... of life...

i don't know... might be due to the fact that i slept late last night and yet i woke up for church or maybe i'm just really tired... tired of living... tired of ns... no... it won't make difference even if i'm in some combat unit and everyday i'll cheong sua... it's just that ns just feels like an ultra-super long chore to me... and it's super boring and actually ns is evil... hearing all the stuff which my friends do in camp... seeing some of these stuff myself... ns is just evil...

tired of having no goals right now in my life... actually i have alot of goals... alot of things which i wanna accomplished in my life... but it's ns again... limiting what i can do to actually close to nil... feel like doing so much but yet can do none... dunnoe lah... just feel like a failure leh... damn sian can... i really wanna be done with this chore... get on with life...